I started to get a gut feeling that something strange is going on. She had always been cold, but now it seemed she was more distant and insensitive.

I was messing around the temporary internet files and was opening them in notepad when I found a message from a guy she was in contact with.

The shocking feeling came over me is beyond words. I wanted to wait and collect more proof but I was deeply devastated that I confronted her immediately.

Unfortunately I got the "it's-only-fantasy" excuse crap and she got so mad at me for violating her privacy. Goodness gracious can u believe that!

As a result I became so unhappy and wretched being betrayed and lied to by someone whom I have given my whole heart to. What hurts the most was the thought that there already is one more guy involved in her life.

The feelings of rejection are crushing. I was thinking I'm a good spouse, truthful to her and apprehensive with the lives of our three kids - and there she was who thinks so little of me and has no sense of what is right from wrong.

Anyhow, I put it all behind and thought everything went to normal not until I found her mobile phone. I made an online account to track her in and outgoing calls. She didn’t know about this. I went online to check her call logs and to my surprise I found out that they were contacting each other frequently.

I confronted her about this again and yet again she accused me of spying her and intruding her privacy.

I proved myself wrong when I again found out that she called the guy the moment we got back from our trip. I monitored her e-mails and to my dismay, they were still communicating. I got fed up I thought that was it. I left!

I was frustratingly devastated, dishonored as a husband and frightened of the future. I knew I’d be divorced and be on my own again and away from my kids. I knew throughout the course of the divorce process would be very difficult not only to me but also to my children.

We are taking counseling sessions but everything's different now. Trust’s gone already and regrets overwhelmed me every time I see her. If not because of our children, I would be long gone.

Don’t think that when you love someone he, she will love you back. Always leave something for yourself.